Well it's been awhile since I wrote in this journal but yeah anyway I don't have anytime to post up new art up here but I also feel empty and just sad. My boyfriend he is a really sweet guy but I just don't know am I losing feelings for him? I sometime wish he was alittle bit more aggresive and well he says he cares about me but how come he's not showing it you know, physically. I haven't got a chance to kiss him for the past 3 weeks because of my strep thoart but now that I'm already over it. We haven't been kissing alot as we use to be, plus I'm also developing more feelings for him but at the same time I feel bad about it the sexual feeling. I just really don't feel close to him as I use too you know. I also know this is my first relationship but I really do like him alot. I just feel really sad still, it also makes me think if I'm not attractive to him and also makes me wonder too about something else. But really am I not attractive too him? am I fat, ugly, what is it?My God it's eating me up inside. But maybe it's also because we don't have alot of alone time together, I mean "alone" time, just me and him. But everytime I try to do it, to get ourselves alone THERE'S ALWAYS A FUCKING PERSON THERE!!!DX GOODDDDDD!!! And he doesn't mind PDA but not in public places just semi public yet after hearing that I can't do anything to him, plus he's doesn't want to do PDA in front of his former friend. Plus I also don't feel trusted. God I just wish he could feel what I'm feeling. I'm jsut so sad right.Y_Y